Jessica's Journal

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 02:24:28 GMT

new journal and its friends only

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What Jessica Got For Christmas

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 15:21:17 GMT

Empyre Argyle Sweater (pink, black and grey)
Wool Peacoat (black with teal trim)
Underwear (red set and hello kitty)
Rancid Shirt
Alkaline Trio Shirt
Fall Out Boy Shirt
10 dollar gift card to Target
15 Dollar gift card to Target
new head phones
The Smiths "Louder Than Bombs"
Morrissey "The Best Of!"
My Chemical Romance "Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge"
America the Book
S'more Maker
Candle with homemade candly cup thinger (mackenzie<3)
cell phone!!!!=)

still hate being lied too

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 04:33:47 GMT

its funny how people promise things but do the opposite with others. not fun. i want to see my friends...

*sigh* anyway i just got back from the larkins. we decorated cookies and did prank calls. twas fun. terry is my hero

tomorrow is christmas eve and im going to give mackenzie her letter and britney her gift.

thats all i have to say.... i dont like the holidays.

i still love these things....

Tue, 21 Dec 2004 03:27:34 GMT

I AM: Jessica. and oh so very scene.
I WANT: to not be worried all the time
I HAVE: a parakeet
I WISH: that people wernt close mnded
I HATE: people who lie to me
I MISS: my family
I FEAR: losing my parents
I HEAR: me brother and mom talking
I SEARCH: on yahoo!
I WONDER: what will happened in the future
I REGRET: nothing
I LOVE: music
I ACHE: alot
I DANCE: really badly
I SING: really badly. almost worse than i dance
I CRY: At night
I CONFUSE: myself
I NEED: a life.
I SHOULD: get a life.

x. father thinks i am: funny
x. mother thinks i am: crazy and suicidal
x. makes you happy: My friends and music
x. upsets you: being lied too.

yes or no...

x. you keep a diary: this LJ is the closest things I have to a diary.
x. you like to cook: sometimes
x. you have a secret you have not shared with anyone: Yeah
x. you set your watch a few minutes ahead: no
x. you bite your fingernails: yes
x. you believe in love: Yeah.

Who is...?

The weirdest person you know: britney
the Loudest Person you Know: britney
Your close friends: mackenzie, zach, beth
the Person that Knows the Most about you: mackenzie

What is...?

your most overused phrase on IM: lol
Inside joke: *squee* *squee* "quick! grab the lube and hamsters and dont look back"
take a shower everyday: no
think you’ve been in love: no

want to get married: yeah.
have any tattoos/where?: no, but I'm going to get some.
piercings/where?: my ears
get motion sickness: sometimes
think you’re a health freak: no
get along with your parents: sometimes.
like thunderstorms: yes
SIGN: aquarius
NATURAL HAIR COLOR: brown
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: brown and red
EYE COLOR: blue
BIRTHPLACE: virgnia

( FAVORITES )

NUMBER: 13
COLOR: pink black or burgundy
DAY: friday
MONTH: june
SONG: anything by rancid or the bastards
FOOD: rice
SEASON: summer
SPORT: badminton
DRINK: snapple peach ice tea or jones apple soda
FRUIT: i like grapes and watermello. also the california clementine oranges
VEGGIE: cucumber

( PREFERENCES )

CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE? hot chocolate
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE?? white
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE? vanilla

( IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU.... )

CRIED? no
HELPED SOMEONE? i think so
BOUGHT SOMETHING? yes.
GOTTEN SICK? no.
GONE TO THE MOVIES? no.
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? no.
SAID “I LOVE YOU”? yes.
TALKED TO AN EX? no.
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? yes. lj.
TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU CRUSH ON? no.
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? no.
MISSED SOMEONE? yes.
HUGGED SOMEONE? no
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? no
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? no.

Would You Ever..

1. Eat a bug? if it ment my survival...
2. Bungee jump? maybe
3. Hang glide? maybe
4. Kill someone? no
7. Have sex with someone of the same sex? not on purpose
8. Parachute from a plane? maybe
9. Walk on hot coals? NO!
10. Go out with someone for their looks? probably not
11. For their reputation? never
12. Be a vegetarian? no
13. Wear plaid with stripes? i could pull it off
14. IM a stranger? yeah.
15. Sing karaoke? no
17. Shoplift? no
18. Run a red light? maybe
19. Star in a porn video? would it be put on the market?
20. Dye your hair blue? yes
21. Be on Survivor? yes
22. Wear makeup in public? yes
23. NOT wear makeup in public? yeah.
24. Cheat on a test? no
25. Make someone cry? yeah...
26. Call your math teacher a motherfucker? math? proabably not....science on the other hand...
27. Kick a baby? if i were kyle and jewish and made of paper then yes
28. Date someone more than ten years older than you? yes. lars....call me
29. Cuss out a priest? depends
31. Wear a tho-tho-tho-tho-thong? yes
32. Stay up all through the night? Yeah

:(

Tue, 21 Dec 2004 02:10:28 GMT

i love it when people lie to me

weeee

Mon, 20 Dec 2004 01:07:25 GMT

today i spent 2 hours with zach and josh. we went to a gymnastic trampoline place and messed around. i almost died on this swing thing and i almost came home with only limbs. after the trampoline place we went over by these train tracks and played with these giant rubber bands and tried to lasso each other. quite the fun time.

i get to see them again tuesday for my dads birthday, thursday to decorate cookies and saterday when they come over for dinner. yay=)

finally, actually someone who wants to spend time with me and probably the only friend ill see over break.

im so fucking scene

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 16:44:27 GMT

took this from timmeh...

1. studded belt - 2 points: 2
2. dyed black hair - 2 points: 0
3. thick rimed glasses - 2 points: 0
4. tight shirts/pants - 2 points each: 30
5. gaudy belt buckle - 2 points each: 2
6. clothing bought from a thrift store - 2 points each: 12
7. having hair with bangs longer than the rest - 2 points: 0
8. trucker hats - 2 points: 2
9. messenger bag - 3 points: 0
10. livejournal/myspace/friendster account - 2 points each: 4
11. saucony/new balance/ converse shoes - 2 points per pair: 12
12. mountian climbing key thingy - 2 points: 2
13. X'd up mosh gloves - 10 points: 10
14. scarf - 2 points: 2
15. refering to bands as acronym - 2 points: 2
16. vegan diet - 5 points: 0
17. vegitarian diet - for shame, no points: 0
18. food not bombs participation - 5 points: 5
19. straight edge - 5 points: 5
20. aspiring photographer - 3 points: 3
21. using adj from the late 80's/ early 90's (i.e. rad, gnarly, rockin', etc.) 1 point for each word in vernacular: 2 [I use bitchin and rad]
22. pins/buttons 1/2 point each: 3
23. plugs/body piercings - 2 points each: 8
24. vinyl collection - 10 points: 0
25. moldy peaches fan - 10 points: 0
26. liking metal seriously - deduct 5 points: 0
27. liking metalcore - 5 points: 0
28. reading books over 300 pages long - 3 points: 3
39. riding a bike - 5 points: 5
30. participating in "the mosh" - 5 points: 5
31. tea aficianado - 5 points: 0 i drink coffee
32. writing poetry - 5 points: 5
33. attended 50 shows or more in a year - 2 points: 0
34. attending hell fest - 5 points: 0
35. being in a band - 5 points: 0
36. working at an indy record store/health food store - 2 points: 0
37. clapping durring midpaced part of a song - 5 points: 5

Total = 139. Tim only got 79 you loose timmeh

0-24 - poser! get out or be forced out.
25-44 - beginner. attend more shows, buy more records, you'll be fine.
45-74 - scenester. you've been around awhile and you know what's up, good job.
75 - or more - GOD! i bow to thee with your knowledge of everything hardcore.

finally...

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 16:35:38 GMT

its finally break. nothing until january 5th. =) score.

friday i got out of classes at 10:30 went to lunch at yakitori 7 and went to the mall to get britneys christmas gift. afterward britney called and asked me to come and see her performance at the mall. so i went back up there again for her. at her performane they did the dance they almost won nationals with and it was awesome. afterward we went to the movies and saw a series of unfortunate events. it was good. dana said it sucked *shrugs* shes read the books though.

yesterday i went grocery shopping at walmart. for things for christmas and christmas eve dinner. the larkins might come over meaning get to spend christmas with my zachy- and joshy-poo. weee. i get to spend today with them today. were going to this trampoline place....*shrugs*

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i havent updated in awhile...

Sun, 12 Dec 2004 21:13:12 GMT

but no one reads anyway.... i think all of my buddies have died

anyway i went to go see finding neverland today. it was really good. you should all go and see it. johnny depp is a really good actor.

my membership to my music uploader thing is expireing which means no more nifty music for my journal. o well...

finals are this week. yay. im going to bomb every single one. im stressed out beyond belief

ive had a bit of writers block the past couple days... or months... but i think i have another poem idea. so you guys should check out my poem journal soon and check out the new one

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 01:49:42 GMT

you guys can see pictures of my hair

i saw national treasure today. it was really good and you should go see it. yes you.

zachs house was fun. jesus that man. he still totally wants me. but who doesnt? kidding. kidding. his girlfriend now is really pretty.

weeeeeeeeeeeee

Fri, 26 Nov 2004 23:54:47 GMT

i got my haircut today. its up to the middle of my neck and its all layered. it looks neat. and guess where i got it done? master cuts, in the mall. dun dun dun. yes. i ventured into the mall on black friday and came out with a new haircut, two christmas presents and no panic attacks. weee!

im going to see my zachy-poo and joshy-poo tonight. weeeeeeeeee. we'll play halo 2 for like 4 hours. he he i love them.<3

im eating microwave chinese food. theres tons of left overs from last night. but im good with eating turkey only one night a year.

i need a new layout. i made a new one for my poems journal ( www.livejournal.com/~distrustexisted )check it out kids

i have come to the conclusion

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 23:01:31 GMT

that dana should run away from new jersey and come to live with me

my concert expierience

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 00:06:48 GMT

yeah its kind of late but thats ok.... the concert was november 4th

i got there around 12 ish and waited by the buses. and i saw cone from sum 41 signing autographs. so i ran to get my friend(britney) who was holding our spot in line and wispered in her ear that he was out by the busses so we walked and cone had gone in but deryk was out. he seemed tired but he took pictures and signed for everyone who was out there, i got my shirt signed. then steve-o came out and he was eating his lunch. he was really nice and he signed my shirt also.

we went back in line and while we were in line benji, joel and billy walked inside but we missed them. i met |-Immortal Fairy-| from the boards and we talked for a bit. we met up with some friends from my school and there friends got meet and greet passes because her mom worked for a radio station and the other radio station said it was a "personal favor". i was soooo jealous.

anyway- we waited till the doors opened and we went in. and i totally could have brought my camera but didnt because i was scared i was going to get thrown out.

they let us in and we all had to go in and sit down. after awhile they let us stand up and we waited standing up and everyne was push everyone. i was so squished. i could have gone limp and still be held up.

lola ray came on and they were AWESOME. john kept looking at me and smiling and coming over to were i was, because i knew the words to every song they played except a new one. they were awesome.

then hazen street came on and they were really neat. im going out and buying there CD very soon.

then Sum 41 came on. and the pushing got really really bad. i could barely breath. everyone in the pit was really nice though and kept asking if i was ok and needed to be past up. their set was long and all they did was cuss. it was kind of lame and i wanted them to get off stage.

while we were waiting for good cahrlotte to come on in between sets i couldnt take it anymore so i had to be past up. now i kind of regret it cuz i could have been 3rd row to see GC. but o well. one girl from the sum 41 set had to have CPR because she stopped breathing in the pit.

but GC's set was AWESOME
heres the setlist in order:
the anthem
walk away
sos
bloody valentine(joels mic went out for a few seconds)
girls and boys
the world is black (joel played guitar and billy played keyboards)
festival song
ghost of you(billy played keyboards)
young and hopeless
mountain
hold on
movin on
predictable (joel on keyboard)
and lifestyles

twas awesome.
benji was really funny and kepy saying "can i get an AMEN?" "a HALLELUJAH?" and he said he wants to get his girlfriend and settle down and have some children in colorado. twas sweet.

after the set we were walking out and met Hoya the bassist from hazen street. i told him they rocked and i was going to buy his Cd he said "now thats what i like to hear" and he was really nice and he signed my shirt also.

after the show we left and i GC came out to sign but sadly i couldnt stay )=

i had an awesome time. thanks to a kind boardie by the name of la fille m0rte i got pictures. since the journal isnt friends only im not going to post them i dont want people to take her pictures

and joel said chris will be back in 9-11 days =)

=(

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 01:49:53 GMT

meh. im feeling all depressed agin. but whats new? even with the GC concert coming up the day after tomorrow. i just knwo somthing bads going to happen and mt dad will go back on his word and we wont get to stay after and try to meet them. and we'll get shitty seats. i swear to god you cant tell my parents anything. i just want to be happy. fuck. is that too much to ask? im tired of being ignored. and i just want everything just to end.

im so sick of this

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 23:09:56 GMT

for once i want to be the first on someones list. i want to be top-priority for once. everyone has there boyfriends and crushes and new friends. and where am i? nowhere. im always second. and it sucks. i want someones whos going to put me first before anything else. i want someone to care for me before themselves. and its not going to happen. i know its not. whats so wrong with me? no guys like me. i cant make friends. shit. am i that fucked up? apparently. i feel so empty. like i dont even have God anymore. what can i do if i dont even have God anymore?! i just dont know what to do anymore.

woo

Sat, 16 Oct 2004 20:18:24 GMT

i havent updated in forever....

i was inspired by holly.

any way.... tonight me and some of my friends are going to outback then were going in a limo.

twill be fun. yes.

3 day weekend this week. weee

i suck at updates.

SHIT ON A SHINGLE

Sat, 25 Sep 2004 17:31:57 GMT

on thursay november 4 britney.my dad and i are going to see good charlotte, sum41, lola ray, and hazen street. could it get any better? why yes, it can. how?

GETTING FRONT ROW TICKETS THATS HOW.

yes row GA1. seast 44,45 and 46. *dies* im happy beyond belief.

one problem....my dad is 56 years old. he cant be standing up against those baricades for 3 hours. where is he going to sit and stil be able to see the show?

wow

Thu, 23 Sep 2004 23:12:46 GMT

LJ changed some stuff up. it looks wierd now.

any way...

new layout, yet again.

and the music is "Boulevard of Broken Dreams" by Green Day. It's my FAVORITE song off the new record. its amazing.

im listening to their new CD now. and it puts me in a good mood.

i went to lunch with my dad today. to the sister kitchen. britneys mom told us about it. its really good. very good pie. mmmmm. i had chocolate cream. so did my dad.

im going to britneys homecoming this weekend. saterday. shall be fun. im getting a dress tomorrow. im going to be so hot.

bleh

Sun, 19 Sep 2004 20:34:41 GMT

im liking this layout... it matches the music with the text and stuff. the musics gong to change about as much as the layout does.

any who...

-i have tons of work that due tomorrow and i havent even started. meh. i also need to bathe. i havent showered in almost a week. im so dirty.

-as im typing this im listening to the music thats playing in my journal. i love lola ray. theyre touring with good charlotte, hazen street and sum 41 this fall. i hope i can go. *crosses fingers* i cant wiat till they release the dates.

-sara went to see GC last night. i was excited for her. she got some cool pictures too. and she met billy, benji and chris. im not sure about paul and joel. joel played guitar at the show. i wish i was there. *waits for tour dates to be released* i want to see them live again so bad.

-i havent updated in awhile. but i was bored out of my mind since the boards are down so i decided to occupy my time with somthing no one even reads. productive? your damn right it is.

i added music

Sun, 19 Sep 2004 20:19:01 GMT

thanks to sara<3. she got me the code and stuff. but any way the music is "Plague(We Need No Victims)" by Lola Ray.

updates updates...

Wed, 15 Sep 2004 02:36:26 GMT

so schools back up again and it sucks.

tomorrow i get to do "teambuilding exercises" woo.

new layout

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 23:31:24 GMT

its hot. just admit it.

my CD collection

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 01:12:03 GMT

because i got incredibly bored......

2Pac- Greatest Hits
AFI- Sing The Sorrow
Alien ANnt Farm- TruANT
Alien Ant Farm- ANThology
All American Rejects- All American Rejects
Ashlee Simpson- Autobiography
Atticus "...Dragging the Lake II"
Bad Religion- The Process of Belief
Bad Religion- The Empire Strikes First
Blink 182- Blink 182
Blink 182- Take Off Your Pants And Jacket
Blink 182- Enema Of The State
Bowling For Soup- Drunk Enough To Dance
Celtic Dreams- Serenity
Dance Hall Crashers- Lock Jaw
Dropkick Murphys- The Singles Collection '96-'97
Evanescence- Fallen
Fall Out Boy- Take This To Your Grave
Five Iron Frenzy- Upbeats and Beatdowns
Fountains of Wayne- Welcome Interstate Managers
Good Charlotte- The Young and The Hopless
Good Charlotte- Good Charlotte
Good Charlotte- Predictable single
Good Charlotte- Good Charlotte
Green Day- American Idiot
Green Day- Kerplunk!
Green Day- Insomniac
Green Day- Dookie
Green Day- International Superhits
Green Day- Nimrod
Green Day- Warning
Lars Frederiksen and the Bastards- Lars Frederiksen and the Bastards
Linkin Park- Hybrid Theory
Linkin Park- Meteora
Lola Ray- I Don't Know You
Lost Prophets- Start Somthing
Mest- Mest
Mest- Mo Money Mo 40z
Mest- Destination Unkown
Mest- Wasting Time
Minor Threat- The Complete Discography
MXPX- Let It Happen
N.E.R.D- In Search Of
New Age Dropouts- Tales From the Backseat
New Found Glory- Catalyst
New Found Glory- New Found Glory
NOFX- The War On Errorism
NOFX- 45 or 46 Songs That Wern't Good Enough To Go On Our Other Records
Piano Classics
Punk-O-Rama 8
Rancid- Rancid (2000)
Rancid- Life Won't Wait
Rancid- Let's Go
Rancid- Rancid (1993)
Rancid- ...and Out Come The Wolves
Rancid- Indestructable
S.O.K- Studio Demo
Sex Pistols- Never Mind The Bullocks Here's The Sex Pistols
Shaggy- Hot Shot
Simple Plan- No Pads No Helmets Just Balls
Stephan Lynch- A Little Bit Special
Stretch Armstrong- Engage
Sugarcult- Palm Trees and Powerlines
Sugarcult- Start Static
Sum 41- All Killer No Filler
Sum 41- Does This Look Infected?
System Of A Down- Toxicity
The Ataris- So Long, Astoria
The Cure- The Cure
The Cure- Greatest Hits
The Distillers- Sing Sing Death House
The Distillers- Coral Fang
The Exfloyded- Floyds Not Dead
The Ramones- Their Toughest Hits
The Rasmus- Dead Letters
The Starting Line- Say It Like You Mean It
The Used- The Used
Toby Kieth- How Do You Like Me Now?
Toby Kieth- Pull My Chain
Trapt- Trapt
Warped Tour 2002 Compilation
Warped Tour 2003 Compilation
Weezer- Maladroit
Yellowcard- Ocean Avenue

this so cool....

Fri, 10 Sep 2004 01:35:35 GMT

answer these questions using song titles from an artist/band

artist/band chosen: rancid

1. Are you male or female: Dope Sick, Girl
2. Describe yourself: Rejected
3. How do some people feel about you?: Animosity
4. How do you feel about yourself?: disgruntled
5. Describe your love interest: Salvation
6. Where would you rather be?: Continental
7. Describe what you want to be: The Wars End
8. Describe how you live: Lock, Step & Gone
9. Describe how you love: You Don't Care Nothin'
10. Share a few words of wisdom: Journey To The End Of The East Bay

awww.

Sun, 05 Sep 2004 20:37:21 GMT

i think my layout is messed up. bleh. i supose ill just make a new one =D